Starting Over
…the flexible are preserved unbroken. Reflecting on several moves, several endings and beginnings of all kinds, I was happy to feel the gifts outweigh the sacrifices. I thought of the flexibility and resilience it took, and added. It’s difficult, and takes courage, to leave what is familiar and start over in a new place, with new people. It’s a huge adjustment to change jobs, find a new doctor and dentist, build a new social network. It’s an even bigger stretch in a different country and another language. For those who have done it alone, or with children and little support, it’s truly admirable.
In addition to the nuisance of logistics, there’s the sense of loss or distance (even if temporary) from what was previously known and the need to continually open ones mind to new ways of thinking and being. But on the other side of that, the benefits include a broader perspective and deeper understanding, internally and externally. It is the prospect of broadening and deepening that I find most exciting about change. It’s amusing to contemplate now, as some of the experiences at the time felt like being in a meat grinder.
My time in Russia was particularly challenging. Even more of a shock was moving to California. But now as we all face so many changes, endings and new beginnings brought on by this tumultuous year, I’m more grateful than ever for all I’ve navigated before. Reflecting on it builds my confidence for whatever lies ahead. I can feel more anticipation than trepidation.
